If I could Paint the Sun

This is why I felt like starting my blog.

HarsH ReaLiTy

Dear You,

“She says she wants to shine a light into the darkness,” but thinks a blog will not accomplish the deed. Does she not realize that with every eye that looks upon her words, a heart might possibly be softened? A mind might be altered slightly? The power to share, to care, and to allow ourselves to affect others… “affect” because we are indeed changing them. It is a scary thought for some and this is not some super power we speak of. It is the power to care and that is a very human quality. That is a character trait that should never be overlooked and instead should be embraced.

A borderless world is social media. This land that we stand in now, these people of all colors and no color at all, their personalities created on fonts called Calibri and Times New Roman. And yet we know…

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Nine things I just cant handle

Image Everyone has things that they Just cant handle and probably never will be able to…..This is my list. And some of these topics may be gross to some or might make some people mad, im sorry. These are my feelings and the “problems” that bother me.


1) Nose picking

Like come one you cant grab something to blow your nose with? You don’t look attractive you just look plain nasty.

2) Farting in public

I understand that this is a natural process, I am a CNA after all, but somethings need to be done IN PRIVACY. The whole world doesn’t need to be involved in your bodily functions.

3) Left over marks on the toilet seat

“If you tinkle on the seaty please be a sweety, and wipe it off” Honestly how hard is that?

4) Things not put away in there place

I may not be very good at cleaning, but I have a spot for everything and if it doesn’t go back in its spot I get very agitated. I feel like its not that hard to put clothes away or put things in the garbage or every just putting the house phone back on the charging dock. Its just the little things that can help keep places clean. so, just do it.

5)I hate being told that I’m young so I dont understand or that my life is so much easier.

I get told constantly at work that everything is easier for be because I’m younger then them. Well, its not. Lifting people and everything else I do puts just as much strain on my body as it does theirs. Also, I get told by a lot of people that my “life” is easier because I’m younger. Its not. Just because I don’t have kids, or I’m not married, doesn’t mean things are easier. I go to school full time, I work part time, and even though I still live at home I still have bills, and I still have to support my self In certain ways.  I still have stress like everyone else, and I still struggle day to day like everyone else.

6) Pressure on women to be a certain size

I think it is absolutely crazy who our society today puts pressure on women to be a certain size.  Back in the day if you were “plump” you were known to be wealthy and that you had money to eat. Now, you known to be fat and lazy. Just because you aren’t a size one doesn’t mean your lazy or fat, some people who are bigger are really fit.  Yes, some aren’t but it doesn’t mean you are any better then someone else.  Also, to all of the women/ girls out there who are the size one, I understand some of you can not help it, some of you can not gain weight. I also understand it doesn’t mean you are unfit. So, If your a women and you healthy, you workout, why, why, why, does it matter what damn size you are. If your happy that is all that matters.

7) Judgment on other people

I know I catch my self doing this some times and I am working on it, but the part the bothers me the “most” is when your at work or out in the store or something, and someone comes up to you and tells you that “your doing something wrong”, “your going to hell for having tattoos”, blah blah blah. ITS NOT YOUR LIFE. So, why do you care!? Am I hurting you? Am I pushing my feelings/ religious feelings on you? No. So, leave me the hell alone, leave other people alone and mind Ur own damn business.  Now, where I live and where I come from the people that are doing the most judging are the people who are religious. So, for you religious people, keep this is mind.

The bible says not to judge another many different times through out the bible. There is only one lawgiver and judge, he who is able to save and to destroy. But who are you to judge your neighbor. James 4:12

8) Bullying

This is the reason for many of our problems in our country. Kids bullying kids, Adults bullying kids, Adults bullying adults. What is the purpose? I get that some people get a certain type of enjoyment out of bullying other people, but what they don’t understand is that bullying causes problems. Bullying makes everyone snap eventually. So, if any of you out there want to make the world a better place, like I do, It can honestly, in my opinion, start with just being more kind to others.

9) Not putting up a new roll of toilet paper

In my house we have this basket that holds any where from two to three toilet paper rolls at a time. So, In my house if you don’t put a new roll on I want to scream at who ever did it because there is absolutely no reason for it.  If your out in public and don’t have access to put a new roll on its quite understandable.

The “Thing” that happened in middle school that changed my “Life”


Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending” 

When I was growing up I was told, “Don’t worry, it’s just school. You will be fine” I wish that was the truth. My parents also realized that’s not the truth. You would think that school will be a safe place for your child, and it should be. But kids “Now a day’s” act a lot different then when my parents went to school.

The “Thing” that changed me was bullying. Now look, I’m not saying when my parents went to school there wasn’t bullying, but I know for a Fact what they went through in school, was nothing like I did.

First: I want to admit right now this will be a “shortened” account of what happened, because this accounted for all of my seventh grade and some of eighth. These are the memories that have really stayed with me.

Second: I want to also admit that when i was younger I was not always the most angelic person, and I always felt like I knew what was “right and wrong”, and that I could change people. (Because I was 13/14 years old and I thought I already had the world figured out.)

So, this whole experience started on MSN instant messenger. For some reason I had all of the 6 or 9 girls in my school that I couldn’t stand, on my instant messenger account. I figured that I would Try to help “change” one of them at a time. (I was “trying” to help these girls because they were only a year older than me and they were having sex, doing drugs, and not caring about school. All things I knew to be wrong. “At the time” Remember I was 13/14 years old) So the first girl I messaged (we will call her Issi) Issi, Didn’t take my “advise” to change her life so well. This is the start of the worst year of my life. 

Issi went to all of her friends saying that I was “down-grading” them, and that I was “disrespecting” them. I would start getting pushed into lockers and being called cruel, and hateful names every day, all day during school. Everyday when I would get home from school I would have emails saying that (excuse my language) I’m a “slut, whore, cunt, etc.”

After about a week of non-stop crying and be scared to go to school my mom made me print off these messages from all of the girls, and then we went into a meeting with the principle. Nothing happened and NOTHING changed. 

A few weeks later I was at the ski hill and they all showed up. So, naturally I left and walked with my friends to one of our fiends apartment. Once we got there I saw a car burn rubber around the corner, and I knew it was them. I ran in side with my friend and we locked the door. His parents weren’t home at the time so we had no one to protect us.

I went in his room and started crying, begging him to not let them in, to not let them hurt me. Then the knocking of the door statred.

” Come on out i know your in there”

“Come on bitch get out here and get what you deserve”

“You dumb bitch we will kill you”

There were Nine girls ageing from 15-19 out side the door wanting to beat my ass.

I called my mom, and she called my neighbor who is a cop.

They left when he got there. They never got in trouble.

I switched schools and was never bullied again.

You might think i was weak, and running away from my problems, but I was 13/14 years old and I was scared!

School was where I loved to be before that. I love to learn.

Now this might not be a huge and “dramatic” thing to anyone else, but these memories, these moments changed me.

I have 3 best friend, one including my boyfriend. I am very self conscious, I cant look people in their eyes (unless i know them), and I hate talking to new people (in person).

This blog makes me feel inspired, makes me want to share my stories, and helps me talk to new people.

My writing is really starting to make me happy and feel good about me.

The 10 Commandments of Relationships

This post made me really think. I’ve decided this is something that is completely true. Realizing this “stuff” can make a relationship so much easier.
“don’t let so many other factor affect YOUR relationship”

There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed. --Ernest Hemingway

1. You don’t have to share all the same hobbies.

No one is asking you to take up football or start playing Call of Duty. If you want to, or actually like to, then that’s awesome. But it isn’t required to make a relationship last. And in exchange you aren’t allowed to make him take you shoe shopping or come to church with you if he doesn’t want to.

2. He doesn’t have to be there to “be there”.

You don’t have to spend every minute with him to feel like your bond is solid. And you don’t expect him to be.

3. You have to have a similar sense of humour.

No exceptions. No amount of nice hair and hot body will make up for having the laughter capacity of a wet sponge. This humour, though, can be whatever is right for you and you shouldn’t let anyone tell you…

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Sorry, I’m Not Sorry. (My Response to 23 Things)

OK, my very first blog post on this site was the article “23 things to do instead of getting engaged at 23” I liked what she wrote. And it may or may not seem hypocritical to some of you but I like what this lady wrote also.
I am 20 years old and I have been with my boyfriend for 4 years now. I have a ring and everything. One day, yes we will get married. But what’s the hurry? Its a price of paper, and a cerimonie to proclaim your love. Well, I proclaim my love to my boyfriend every single day and I know that a wedding won’t change how much I love him. Being married or not being married you can still find you and you can still enjoy the world.
Also, I work with this amazing lady who has been with her guy for over 17 years and they still haven’t gotten married but they have there family and they will get married someday. Now, some of you might say well after 17 years if you haven’t gotten married you won’t, but I don’t see it that way. They still love each other as much as they do when they were kids so why is marriage a huge thing?
I’m not saying I won’t get married, I’m just saying there is no rush. Mariage doesnt create the love you have for one another.
Sorry for the ramble….

taylor della-coletta

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Ok, so there’s this blog post that went viral (at least in my age bracket) this past week titled “23 Things to do Instead of Getting Engaged Before You’re 23.”

Here’s the link, in case you missed it –> http://wanderonwards.com/2013/12/30/23-things-to-do-instead-of-getting-engaged-before-youre-23/

Read it? Ok, those who know me outside of social media know that I have an opinion about EVERYTHING. I don’t always voice it..okay that’s not even a little true. I usually voice it. Loudly. And much to my Husband’s dismay. (Love you babe!)

I definitely had an opinion about this one. At first I thought the blogger was just some lonely, bitter, brat just coming off of a bad breakup and angry at the world. I still think she is, to a point. But now I realize that while I don’t agree with her on much, she’s still entitled to her opinion. I’ve seen multiple responses from other bloggers…

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23 Things To Do Instead Of Getting Engaged Before You’re 23

I love this.

Wander Onwards


As 2013 wraps up, I’ve been noticing more and more people getting engaged and/or married under the age of 23.

I get it.

It’s cold outside… you want to cuddle and talk about your feelings… life after graduation is a tough transition… so why not just cut to the chase and get married, right?  It’s hip. It’s cool. You get to wear clothing that wouldn’t normally be socially acceptable at the dive bar you frequent with the $5 beers.  Eff it. YOLO. YOMO! You only marry once…

Oh wait.

The divorce rate for young couples is more than twice the national average. Divorce is no longer a staple in a midlife crisis, but rather, something that SEVENTEEN Magazine should probably be printing on. Headlines could read,

“How to budget for your prom AND your wedding in the same year!”

“What’s HOT: Kids raising Kids.”

“Why your Mom doesn’t really…

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