“You have the right to remain silent and refuse to answer questions. Do you understand?”

my words are a weapon. I have been accused, and so I say I shouldn’t speak.

“Anything you do say may be used against you in a court of law. Do you understand?”

hands are cuffed. Drawn together. I can choose to speak.

“You have the right to consult an attorney before speaking to the police and to have an attorney present during questioning now or in the future. Do you understand?”

Hearsay I do not want. In the present I am without guidance.

“If you decide to answer questions now without an attorney present you will still have the right to stop answering at any time until you talk to an attorney. Do you understand?”

My words will be a weapon. Against me. If misspoken. My cased will be biased and broken beyond repair.

“Knowing and understanding your rights as I have explained them to you, are you willing to answer my questions without an attorney present?”

My hands are cuffed and tied together. I will not mutter words.

So take these handcuffs from my writs and place them on my lips.

Words I will not utter.


I talk behind your back

The other day I had an extremely bad day at work. Not because I was at work, because I love my job, it was because of my co-workers. At the end of the day I was seriously debating on quitting and or finding a new job.

The next day was the fucking cherry on top of the ice cream. My friend came and found me at school to tell of the awful things my co-workers were saying about me after I left work.

In the matter of an hour after her telling me this; I went through a series of emotions; which I think was a “normal” response.

1ST I was crying

1st pic

I was wondering how these people who claim to like me and claim to be my friends, could even speak what they were saying about me!

2ND I was very frustrated

2nd picThat picture is also 100% accurate of how I looked. All I could think about was “What fucking bitches!” and they “C” word ran through my mind a few times too…(hey I’m being honest)

Then 3RD we have ANGER (which I am still in- image that)

3rd pic

Some of you may think “Well-shit. Your friend probably shouldn’t have told you.”

Well, I’m glad she did. I know people talk about other people behind there backs all the time- I even do. But, is it good things your talking about- is it things you would say to there face- or are you just completely being two-faced.

Eleanor Roosevelt said, “Great minds discuss ideas. Average minds discuss events. Small minds discuss people.”

This post doesn’t mean that I’m magically hoping everyone will some how turn perfect. I’m just hoping we all can just do better from they day before- and To point out something that you might not always think of.

When a co-worker- or even some one you just know- makes a mistake, you shouldn’t battle them behind there back, or make fun of them. You should offer support, and feedback!

And it is probably a good idea to keep someones personal stuff personal. And not change what you think of the situation once the person is gone.

Gossip is detrimental to trust in a relationship. Whether you’re at work talking about coworkers or at home talking about a neighbor, it’s in poor taste to denigrate someone behind their back, and it can lead to long-lasting negative consequences. It’s a better idea to take it to the source. Honestly confront people if there is an issue and keep your descriptions of people positive when they’re not around. There are few things more hurtful or damaging to a relationship than gossiping about someone.

Whether it’s spreading rumors, speaking critically, or otherwise badmouthing someone, it’s just not a good idea. Gossiping should have no place at work. If someone has done something to offend you, go to them directly and work the problem out. Don’t cling to anger and let it diminish your performance and ability to work in teams.

Life is complex for us all. We never really know what another is going through. Speaking behind someone’s back innocently and or with the intent to hurt is one of the most anti-productive activities that inhibit businesses today. There’s no need to exacerbate or cause new problems by saying rude or undermining comments behind each other’s backs.
If I have an issue with you, I should come to you and have the courage to speak with you about the concern. So often when I’ve done that, even when I’ve been scared to do it, the outcome has been positive. We may not solve the problem, but we get closer to one another and it forms a deeper trust.

Whats wrong though with talking about people behind there backs if it is respectable, helpful, a compliment, or in service for the greater good. NOTHING!! people need to start doing this more.

I challenge you over the course of the next few days to pay extra close attention to when you talk about others behind their back.

If you’re about to say something negative – gossip, rumor, or criticism – then try your best to avoid saying anything about the person at all. Or, if you really want to talk about the person, make sure it is something kind, respectful, and positive.

A general rule to follow is that if you’re not willing to say something in front of someone, you probably shouldn’t say it at all.


You can’t go back and change the past, so look to the future and don’t make the same mistake twice.

handle with Care


I want you to know, this is the hardest thing I have ever had to write. That because I can relate to this topic pretty damn well.  Death tells us: “A lot of people chase after me. More then you would think. They ask me to take them with me. And there are a small percentage who casually call me over and whisper ‘Have Me’. There was no stopping them. They were very frightened people, but it wasn’t me they were scared of. It was the fear of them messing up again and having to face themselves. And facing the world, and facing the likes of you.” I relate to this because there was a time, a long time ago, where I didn’t want to see the sun rise again. You feel like no one wants you, and that no one would care if you were absent. And the funny thing is, is that you have been absent. But, people are so self absorbed in there own fucking lives that they fail to notice the blank look on your face. I understand the feeling of thinking your [parent]s don’t want you.

Everyone fails to notice that your sad because your the one smiling and laughing, and maybe your even the one telling all the great jokes. But at night, when you are truly alone, a killer traps you in a corner and slowly eats away any shred of happiness you have. All that is left is pain, and then death. To me, and other people, this question is not easily answered. “Why do you have all these scars? What is that scar from? Why are you happy one minute and then sad the next?”  Do you honestly think we have an easy answer for that!? Or even one that we would want to share with strangers!? Some people want attention, so its easy for them to show and tell what happens at night. NOT ME!

I’m telling you this STORY because I want people to understand that people like me are in a box filled with the finest china. We have handle with care written all over us. Even the ones god forgot to mark with the sign “fragile” on there head.