All posts for the month June, 2015

I’m a Fish- you are the water

Published June 10, 2015 by imagine525


Come walk with me

Through the forest light

We will lay and watch the starry night.

We will make a temporary home

in the patch of the woods

where the moonlight bleeds.

Sunlight burns through the cotton sky.

You made gardens grow in my lungs.

You bloomed roses in my cheeks.

You ran rivers through my veins.

You were the soil beneath my feet.

Now the flowers wilt,

Waters run cold.

With no leaves to hold- branches hang limp.

Snow in my nose.

Hail down my throat.

I spit grey smoke into the winter air.

Im a fish,

and they will say their are plenty more in the sea.

But, your water,

Im stuck on land-

And I really need to breath!



One day can change it all….

Published June 8, 2015 by imagine525


The day had started like any other day.

You woke up

You had your morning coffee

You made me some breakfast.

Mom said she felt something in her gut,

She told you to go to the doctors.

I was only 11.

I was in a room with five other people I did not know.

Who was the tall man in the corner?

I did not know what was going on-

Everyone was confused.

[Then reality sunk in]

I walked to your hospital bed-

expecting to see your smile-

{it was not there}

Your clothes were in a bag on the floor-

I looked at the screen an saw a flat line.

{The sound was off}

But, I could hear it loud and clear!

The tears came rushing as I reached for you

{Willing you to reach for me}

I walked to your closet and grabbed your favorite shirt.

{it gave me comfort}

I had faith I would see you the next day.

“Daddy loves you, be a good girl”

{Your last words}

Mom has her phone by her side

[she has missed seven calls]

She is broken-

{she needs you}

I often look to god and ask for one more day-

I love you- would be all I would say…

I fear I will walk the aisle alone

I fear I will forget the little things about you..

But, what I fear most,

{My kids will never know you}


27 Weeks With a Baby Update

Published June 4, 2015 by imagine525

Since my blog is anonymous, and I’m still planning on keeping it that way (for maybe just a little longer) this picture is not me, but I love writing by blog posts with a pictures!


How far along: 27 Weeks!

Total Weight gain: It is sad to think that in the beginning of this pregnancy I was so worried because I kept losing weight- 15 lbs to be exact! Well, I have gained that back, and 16 more lbs!

Maternity Clothes:  I absolutely love wearing maternity tank tops because mine are getting to tight. I have also had to go and buy XL scrub tops for work because I can no longer cover up my entire belly in my regular scrub clothing. I also only like wearing leggings, sweats, or maternity pants- but I only have one pair of shorts and one pair of jeans.

Sleep: Getting sleep has not been that bad. I am tired a lot- but laying down and sitting for long periods of time, get really uncomfortable. My baby boy likes putting his feet and knees into my ribs.

Best moment this week: I would have to say how everyone keeps commenting on by cute baby belly. And I would also have to say feeling my baby boy having hiccups for the first time has also been pretty amazing.

Miss anything: Wine

Cravings: I always enjoy having a piece of candy to suck on, and fruit/ yogurt

Symptoms: Rib pain, and I definitely cannot hold my pee. I am also having Braxton Hicks contractions- really fun! I notice that a lot when I am at work, so I hope to god I can make it through work tell August.  Also, when I am on my feet a lot- like when I went to Arizona a few weeks ago- I swell, really bad in my feet, ankles, and sometimes all the way up to my knees :S

Rings on or off: This whole pregnancy I have not be able to wear any jewelry besides a necklace. My earings make my ears get infected almost right away, and rings make my fingers painfully swell.

Looking forward to: Getting on with these last for weeks of summer school. I also have a party for my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary, and my birthing class this week.

Baby Update: My baby is weighing at almost 2 lbs, is the size of a head of cauliflower, and the legs are definitely extended. During my last doctors appointment I found out I do not have Gestational diabetes, my iron levels are fantastic, and the baby is facing head down. This time is definitely flying by!